Before this year comes to an end, let me post one last time for the year.

It's gonna be an emo post. Super duper emo.. if you don't wanna be affected by me, please don't read. And it's  not gonna be a long post.
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Okay. So i just feel like dying. I cannot take it already. Stopped my medication again after experiencing the super skin sensitivity that's totally crazy. I couldn't take it, it's (face) too sensitive! And what's the outcome for not taking the medication? Face became worse, super bad. I don't even wish to look at the mirror already... Super depressed till i would think of dying every single day, every single hour. The word 'die' never leave my mind. I've yet to plan though.. maybe soon enough. You would think i'm such a coward for wanting to die just to escape from the harsh reality and that i should have instead come to terms with the fact and learn to accept it. It's not easy Do you know? Wait till you're in the same situation as me then if you still are able to tell me to accept the fact, i would gladly do so. But the thing is, no one understands how i'm feeling. You think it's such a 'pleasure' to look in the mirror and see your face looking so sickening? You think it's funny every where i go i would look at the mirror? You fucking think it's funny? You come and laugh at me in the face, i sure will slap you hard. I'm in no mood to joke already. This is not a matter to be joked. So don't fucking tell me this and that when no one truly understands.

I'm so tired already, mentally. I can't think straight already. Every single day trying to hold on for the few ones who love me... other than that, i'm really tired... i feel like letting go already... crying doesn't help. it doesn't help le