I feel so stressed. Finding jobs is making me stress.. why is it so hard to find a decent one? The ones that look fine, all are so far away. Many stops i don't mind, but why is it soooo far away from the mrt?

Face is making me stressed. It's coming back. My Acne Rosacea is coming back. I can see it (the symptoms) getting more obvious with each passing day. I know it. Having it for 1yr+, i know how it looks like when it comes back. They are right. They said stopping the medication will lead to this. I didn't believe at first, now i do What to do?? Just sit down here and see my face get worse with each passing day? NO WAY. I gonna do something about this... But i don't know do what! Going back to doctor ain't a solution, he just gonna give me the medications again!! No!! AND I FUCKING CAN'T GO TO A DOCTOR WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION. WHAT THE FUCK??? I'm so lost... stressed up.... i'm... tired... someone help me please? tell me what to do! I have no one to help me... Maybe i should just explore the face products and just hope that it works and not... you know.

Once again i feel that life is so fucked up, so bloody meaningless. I kept on holding on, but why do things keep happening to me??? I'm not asking it to FULLY recover, i know it won't. ALL I ASK FOR is to control it. Why it keeps coming back...


Seems like i can't enjoy my 20th birthday this year. Fuck this, fuck that, fuck everything and everywhere. I should just go fuck-.-