last night i cried myself to sleep. should be a happy day cause i met rk. as usual, he would always hug me>< it feels wrong to hug a guy friend o.o er.. never mind.. i don't know why, i felt very sad. the bus trip alone was so.. lonely. smsed people so i won't feel lonely, but it didn't help much.. at that moment of time, i was hoping someone is beside me, so i can lie on his shoulder and sleep.. i just want to rest.

been thinking a lot, especially last night. fell asleep at 1am++. while thinking, was tearing at the same time too. so so sad


maybe i really shouldn't meet rk anymore. it's so wrong.


maybe i should tell you the truth, one day.


i guess i have came to a point whereby i mean nothing to anyone anymore. all thanks to me.


sorry for the pessimistic post, can't help it. don't like it? fuck off lo.