i feel like changing myself into a bad girl. (NOT DO BAD THINGS, JUST LOOK LIKE ONE BAD GIRL)
like, whats the point of looking like a guai kia when god seems to keep playing tricks on you.. might as well become a pai kia.
put make-up, dye hair etc.. change myself totally. till i don't know who i am anymore.
should i?
can i?

there are so many things i want to say.. who will listen?

seriously had enough with flare ups again and again.
it really makes me feel like DYING.
maybe, i would perish before graduation day, or maybe after.
i will do that when i have seriously gone insane.
right now, i'm like 75% insane. 25% more to go.
one would think, hold on for your loved ones.
but the thing is, i have no more strength.
the love i felt from them, can no longer hold me down.
it's not enough..


there are so many things i want to do, but, i can't right now...
i feel so so so empty, sad and lonely...