I'm sad.. Really sad. Memories of you and I kept flashing into my mind. Those
happy, sad moments.. I'll never forget. It has been quite some time since I'm
with you, during these times, we quarreled a lot. Everytime we quarrel, I felt
hurt, sad.. I always had this in mind, I kept asking myself this "Why do we keep quarreling?" As far as I remember, we quarreled the most number of times as compared to having those happy times. It's really saddening to say this.. But that's the fact. Don't you agree too? By right, we should have broken up long time ago, but we just couldn't bear to leave each other. That's why we are still together till now.

You keep sms-ing me, seeing those smses, i really want to give you one LAST chance, but somehow my heart is telling me not to.

I really am afraid of being hurt again.. The feeling of being hurt, feeling disappointed.. Is really too unbearable. My heart is made of glass, it gets
shattered very easily.. Every time my heart breaks, i tried to mend it, even though
I had mended it, there's still cracks between the broken pieces. These cracks
won't be mended no matter how I tried to piece it up. Last night, you broke those mended pieces into thousands of pieces.. This time, I can't mend it already, because the pieces are way too shattered.. Imagine a girl with a totally shattered heart..
That feeling is so.. saddening. Sometimes you feel that you can't feel anything
you know.. That's called 'Heart Dead'. When your heart dies, you can't
feel anything. Those hurts, pain which you felt earlier.. somehow you don't
feel it anymore. But that doesn't mean you aren't scare of being hurt once again.
Deep in my heart, I still fear that I would feel that again. Even though you have
promised me that you won't hurt me anymore, but I'm still scare, very scare.

You, as my boyfriend, should be the one protecting me. But not only you
didn't protect me, you are actually the one hurting me again and again.
Sometimes I feel that I'm all alone, all alone to fend for myself. Because
I know that I'm the only one who can protect myself.

Before I became your girlfriend, you were a totally different guy. A guy who's real good, someone who makes me feel happy all day long. But ever since we
got together, your character changed, making me think whether that's the real you.

A lot of things that you said to me, I still remember. Those include good and
bad ones. Your every single words etched deep in my heart.

You meant a lot to me, just that I do not know how to express it.
You are so important to me that even though you have hurt me umpteenth times,
I still willing to forgive you.

My heart is soft. Everyone says I'm too soft-hearted. Because of that, I got
cheated easily. My mind is too simple too, I always thought that things are
simple when in actual fact it's not.

Seeing those smses made me cry... I really don't know what to do, I really
don't know... My fragile heart is swaying in the wind.. Where will it
land eventually? Would it land to your hands, or would it land to the ground
and shattered into pieces once again? I really don't know.

I don't know what I want to do now.

Typing these out makes me cry.. Yea I'm too good at crying.. But.. Those
are what I want to say. Typing it out somehow makes me feel 'better'
for awhile..