Do you know how saddening it is when the thing you hope for doesn't have any news?

The feeling... is very saddening.. and unbearable.

These past few days have not been sleeping well.
Keep having nightmares.
Nightmares about the thing...
What are all those nightmares trying to tell me?
Asking me to give up? To stop hoping?
Hahas... Even if it is so, I won't give up..
Not until.. next week.

Arghh.. Please please please... give me a reply at least..
So that I know I'm not hoping for nothing..

I really hope that I could stop ranting about all these..
I'm sick of it you know.
I'M SO SICK OF RANTING ABOUT IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
But I can't help it..