I cannot bring myself to accept the truth.
I tried to accept it, but i just CANT!

It isn't easy you know.
Don't say you know, cuz you don't know -.-
Wait until you are the same as me, then you will know.
[Not referring to anyone in particular, just talking to myself. Lalala.]

I can cry and cry and cry non-stop.
I thought I have gotten over it yesterday, but I was wrong.
Today the same old feeling came back once again.
Crying is the only thing I can do to release my sadness deep inside my heart.
But then, I soon realised that all these crying won't help.
I'm not getting better you see.

Though they might give me a chance, but then it's not gonna be easy.
It will be super difficult.
Hahas, I'm not a genius ok?
I'm stupid, so don't say I'm smart.
I scored well cuz I'm willing to study very very hard.
That's why my scores are nice.
If I don't study, would my grades be that nice?
Definitely a no no.

It applies to everyone too.
If you are willing to work real hard, you will score well.
The hard work and effort that you put in, won't go down the drain.

Why am I talking about this?
I don't know.
Just feel that life is colorless now, all I can see is white and black.
Seriously. Wait till you are in my shoes then you would fully understand how I'm feeling now.

Holidays are coming, but it doesn't concern me. I still have to study like hell.
Hahas. I'm so happy yea.

P/S: For those who know what I'm talking about, keep it inside your heart, don't have to mention it out or tell any others who doesn't know about it.